I had a dream a night or so ago. I was sitting talking with someone I used to be friends with, Lisa. In the dream I remembered that I had heard her husband had died suddenly. I asked her if she minded telling me what had happened, why he had died so suddenly. Lisa told me that it was because he had cancer and it just killed him all of a sudden. He had not known.
Now, this man is pretty in shape. He is built and not overweight at all. He is in his 30's. So that would seem odd. And the emphasis, in the dream, was on the internal organs like the liver being attacked.
In real life Lisa is divorced to her husband. He had cheated on her and got the adulterer pregnant and he divorced Lisa and married her, a bartender. The last time I saw Lisa she was engaged to be married to an IT guy. But in the dream, it was her original husband, whom she truly adored and did so much for. She even went all out in the bedroom for him. She had no inhibitions, that I remember, with him in that area. They had had a really healthy marriage from what I could tell. He just let himself go to the bar with his buddies (not all married) and get intoxicated and the devil fed him lies and he bought them...hook line and sinker. Lisa and he had 3 girls together, too.
I do not know right now what the significance of the dream is. It made me wonder about my own husband and if he was in danger of cancer. I believe he has a fear of that since his dad died of it when he was younger. But God is not the author of fear. 2 Timothy 1:7 says For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. We must always remember that when fear comes upon us. We must focus on God's love for us and how much He has done for us!
I pray that my husband accepts Jesus as his Saviour. I really want my husband to know the love that God has for him! I want my husband to be filled with the joy and peace that knowing God can give you. It is so relaxing and uplifting to know God has a plan and a purpose for you.
I know I did not do what God planned for me in my life. But now I do want to do what God wants me to do. I know that He can make something awesome out of my life, even if I screwed up the first 30 years. He loves me and His thoughts are higher than mine! Isaiah 55:9 talks about this very thing For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
God I welcome your guidance and your instruction into my life...each and every day Lord, even if I forget to ask for it, please give it to me. I need it. I am nothing without your love and leading. You are so awesome and so worthy Lord! Thank you for being so kind [(Isaiah 54:9-10) For this is as the waters of Noah unto me: for as I have sworn that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth; so have I sworn that I would not be wroth with thee, nor rebuke thee. For the mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed, saith theLord that hath mercy on thee.] and for being so stable and full of unending peace and love for me and for us all! Thank you for choosing me to be your daughter Father! I am so thankful to have you as my Father Lord...my Abba Da! Thank you!
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Saturday, June 30, 2012
Sunday, June 3, 2012
It has been difficult...
I have not been the nicest person lately to my spouse. I have done really well, all around. But today I was nit picky and critical. The only things are that I have been sleep deprived lately more than normal. My son was sick a couple of weeks ago, he had a fever for 4.5 days. Then this past week my daughter has been in her room with hand foot and mouth disease. My son had a fever again yesterday. But, praise God he was healed and is doing much better today. He is just teething, it seems, and is needy. But no fever. But he did get me up at 3am. I had had a good dream that I want to share, but at the moment am unable to write it down due to memory lapse.
I tried to nap with my son last evening, but my husband woke me to ask if I needed anything. I did not get upset, I just went upstairs to bed. Today, I was going to fall asleep on the couch with my son, but did not want a repeat of yesterday, so I told my husband I was going to go upstairs to sleep with our son. My husband came up less than five minutes later, I just had our son to sleep, and woke him up, to ask where I put the cayenne pepper. I was so frustrated and tired. I kept telling him how frustrated I was, and how I just wanted to sleep, and that if he did not want to cook, he should have just told me, he did not have to wake him up. I feel hubby is being passive aggressive. Two days in a row he has woken me up when he knows I am not getting good sleep. Hubby has not let me sleep in. I have had to get up and cook every day, even though he is off in the mornings lately. My daughter is out of school. So I do not have to get up for her, but he won't help and let me catch up on my sleep.
And then he seems so shocked that I am being snippy and impatient with him. Well, I wonder why? Men always get to sleep. Women get short changed on our sleep so much. And they blame pms for our moods. No, it is I have kids and you won't get your butt out of bed once or three times a week and let me sleep in, without pissing the kids off so they cry and wake me up 30 minutes later. Arghie argh.
Lord help me. I am doing my best right now to not disrespect my husband. But when he is not honoring and loving me, and I am tired and drained, it is harder than normal to be kind and sweet. I want to. He kept running his mouth and I did manage to walk over and when he was telling me to slap him, I just kissed him and said God loves you.
Lord guide my husband to do what is best for our family Lord. Because he is thinking of taking a promotion that will keep him away from home even longer. He already is gone almost 11 hours. He is only awake maybe 5 hours at best, at home with us. He only gets one mean with his family a day. He does not get time with me much anymore. It can make you think you are second to his job, when they won't ever take a sick day to take care of you, and they are considering spending even more time at work. Money is not worth all of that.
*I had had a vision a while back that my hubby would get promoted. I told him that things were going to be changing at his job soon. That was a short time ago. Pretty amazing that it came to pass like that. There is a big shift going on in the building where he works.
Lord, help my husband see the priorities as you see them for his life. I pray that he will open his heart to your will for his life and his job life. I pray that he will be open to understanding how women are different in a good way from men and that you my Father made us to be that way! I pray that he will follow your will and guidance and will do what is best for all of us, and not for his 'security blanket'. That he will trust YOU for our money and not his own ability.
Lord help me to focus on you when I get run down. Help me to see the silver lining, the golden egg, the light in the darkness. Help me to be more appreciative and less critical. Help me to thank you most of all! Help me to focus on your love for me and how much you love me and accept me! Even when I do not feel valued or appreciated at home, thank you for showing me how much you appreciate me! Keep showing me what to do with my life Lord. Show me how to be a better mother to my children and a better wife to my husband. Thank you Lord.
I tried to nap with my son last evening, but my husband woke me to ask if I needed anything. I did not get upset, I just went upstairs to bed. Today, I was going to fall asleep on the couch with my son, but did not want a repeat of yesterday, so I told my husband I was going to go upstairs to sleep with our son. My husband came up less than five minutes later, I just had our son to sleep, and woke him up, to ask where I put the cayenne pepper. I was so frustrated and tired. I kept telling him how frustrated I was, and how I just wanted to sleep, and that if he did not want to cook, he should have just told me, he did not have to wake him up. I feel hubby is being passive aggressive. Two days in a row he has woken me up when he knows I am not getting good sleep. Hubby has not let me sleep in. I have had to get up and cook every day, even though he is off in the mornings lately. My daughter is out of school. So I do not have to get up for her, but he won't help and let me catch up on my sleep.
And then he seems so shocked that I am being snippy and impatient with him. Well, I wonder why? Men always get to sleep. Women get short changed on our sleep so much. And they blame pms for our moods. No, it is I have kids and you won't get your butt out of bed once or three times a week and let me sleep in, without pissing the kids off so they cry and wake me up 30 minutes later. Arghie argh.
Lord help me. I am doing my best right now to not disrespect my husband. But when he is not honoring and loving me, and I am tired and drained, it is harder than normal to be kind and sweet. I want to. He kept running his mouth and I did manage to walk over and when he was telling me to slap him, I just kissed him and said God loves you.
Lord guide my husband to do what is best for our family Lord. Because he is thinking of taking a promotion that will keep him away from home even longer. He already is gone almost 11 hours. He is only awake maybe 5 hours at best, at home with us. He only gets one mean with his family a day. He does not get time with me much anymore. It can make you think you are second to his job, when they won't ever take a sick day to take care of you, and they are considering spending even more time at work. Money is not worth all of that.
*I had had a vision a while back that my hubby would get promoted. I told him that things were going to be changing at his job soon. That was a short time ago. Pretty amazing that it came to pass like that. There is a big shift going on in the building where he works.
Lord, help my husband see the priorities as you see them for his life. I pray that he will open his heart to your will for his life and his job life. I pray that he will be open to understanding how women are different in a good way from men and that you my Father made us to be that way! I pray that he will follow your will and guidance and will do what is best for all of us, and not for his 'security blanket'. That he will trust YOU for our money and not his own ability.
Lord help me to focus on you when I get run down. Help me to see the silver lining, the golden egg, the light in the darkness. Help me to be more appreciative and less critical. Help me to thank you most of all! Help me to focus on your love for me and how much you love me and accept me! Even when I do not feel valued or appreciated at home, thank you for showing me how much you appreciate me! Keep showing me what to do with my life Lord. Show me how to be a better mother to my children and a better wife to my husband. Thank you Lord.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Dream about my daughter
I had a dream this morning about my daughter. She had cut things out of some old books I had. They were 1950's era magazines/soft bound type books. She had cut out different women in their retro outfits. I could see through the magazines there were so many cut out. I was upset about what she had done, but I do not remember going ape about it in the dream. That was a thing to remember. There were two of these books, too.
In day time my dad had told me he has some 1906 and '07 magazines for me. 2 to be exact that he is going to mail to me when he gets the money. So, some could be a reference to that. I think it could also be a reference to my daughter seeking what kind of woman she wants to be and trying out different models.
Today was the first day, thank my God, that my daughter did not get really upset with me in the morning! It was so awesome to have her go to school in a good mood with me, for a blessed change! Thank you God for a wonderful start of a new day! I made sure when I picked her up to let her know how much it meant to me that she had behaved SO well!
The Holy Spirit is telling me the real things that are bothering my daughter, too, now. For instance, when she went to go look at the lunch menu for school and decide if she wanted it or to make her lunch, she chose the school lunch. God told me that she just didn't' want to make it herself. So, I asked her, and she admitted she just didn't want to make it herself. I told her I would help her in the morning and that a little effort is worth her good health, that she is worth the effort. Which she is. Those school lunches are awful when it comes to the processed meat that the federal government calls food. That is not real meat and I don't like her eating that junk. Thank you Lord for making sure we have healthy meat to eat at home, at the very least!
God is so awesome!
Take the LIMITS OFF OF GOD!
I strongly recommend you to watch Mr. Wommack's teachings on Don't Limit God times 10! It is powerful...I cried today, it is that good. If you come across this post after this week, then look it up in his archive. It is all free. We love that about him! http://www.awmi.net/tv/this_week
You can also find the free audio download here http://www.awmi.net/extra/audio/1076
In day time my dad had told me he has some 1906 and '07 magazines for me. 2 to be exact that he is going to mail to me when he gets the money. So, some could be a reference to that. I think it could also be a reference to my daughter seeking what kind of woman she wants to be and trying out different models.
Today was the first day, thank my God, that my daughter did not get really upset with me in the morning! It was so awesome to have her go to school in a good mood with me, for a blessed change! Thank you God for a wonderful start of a new day! I made sure when I picked her up to let her know how much it meant to me that she had behaved SO well!
The Holy Spirit is telling me the real things that are bothering my daughter, too, now. For instance, when she went to go look at the lunch menu for school and decide if she wanted it or to make her lunch, she chose the school lunch. God told me that she just didn't' want to make it herself. So, I asked her, and she admitted she just didn't want to make it herself. I told her I would help her in the morning and that a little effort is worth her good health, that she is worth the effort. Which she is. Those school lunches are awful when it comes to the processed meat that the federal government calls food. That is not real meat and I don't like her eating that junk. Thank you Lord for making sure we have healthy meat to eat at home, at the very least!
God is so awesome!
Take the LIMITS OFF OF GOD!
I strongly recommend you to watch Mr. Wommack's teachings on Don't Limit God times 10! It is powerful...I cried today, it is that good. If you come across this post after this week, then look it up in his archive. It is all free. We love that about him! http://www.awmi.net/tv/this_week
You can also find the free audio download here http://www.awmi.net/extra/audio/1076
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Pecans and blessings of things
Night before last, I had a dream where He told me that the pecans would be really bountiful in a week's time. At first I thought he meant for me to wait a week before I started looking for them again. You see, I look every day and collect pecans in the yard from our one tree. This year I was promised a bumper crop and I have been having to fight, at times, to remain in faith, for that to come to fruition. It may seem like such a silly thing to some. But I have been tempted to go to an old neighbor's home and get her pecans, since her house is up for sale...or even to ride around and find a tree in a vacant lot and pick those, for fear that we would not have enough this year. But, I have not done that. So, I have been encouraged by the dream. In fact, the past two days since the dream I have collected more and more pecans. So, I believe that what He said is correct and that by the end of these 7 days I will have a bumper crop of harvest come in from our blessed tree.
We bless our tree regularly, too. Everything loves to be blessed. We even blessed our water filter with a short prayer on a sticky note. It started filtering better and is still going strong! Check out Dr. Emoto's studies on water and how it reacts when it is blessed. http://www.masaru-emoto.net/english/ephoto.html You can also see what I am talking about in the movie, "What the Bleep do we Know". That movie, to me, scientifically proves there is a God and that what I know to be true, is true. Very good movie, a fun movie, that will make you laugh as well.
We bless our tree regularly, too. Everything loves to be blessed. We even blessed our water filter with a short prayer on a sticky note. It started filtering better and is still going strong! Check out Dr. Emoto's studies on water and how it reacts when it is blessed. http://www.masaru-emoto.net/english/ephoto.html You can also see what I am talking about in the movie, "What the Bleep do we Know". That movie, to me, scientifically proves there is a God and that what I know to be true, is true. Very good movie, a fun movie, that will make you laugh as well.
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