I have had quite a few doors close in my life this season. One big one, in particular, is the continuing of my education at Charis Bible College. I thought God wanted me to continue past my first year certificate and get my 2nd or even third year program done. I had been working towards that with all my heart. But, alas, that did not work out. I had a run in with a very unChrist like man who runs a branch of the school. Keep the director of the Atlanta branch in your prayers, as he is not very compassionate, kind, or loving...which is what the school is supposed to be all about. It does not put a good foot forward for the ministry, the school, or God, to be completely honest. If I had been a newer Christian, his attitude and way that he handled the decision to cancel our whole year program, would have turned me away from God completely. Praise God I had more time under my belt. But this should not be so. And maybe the man needs a step back and a break from the job as he doesn't seem to remember the tenants that Jesus spoke to us, about love.
So with that door being shut, I was devastated. But only for a day, or so. I knew that God had plans for me that not even someone with an antiChrist spirit could destroy. I also knew that God had something in store for me. I decided to just wait on God. Which I am still doing really...months later. I did feel like God wanted me to contact a local prophet about what God's been telling me. And in so doing, I got a lot of reassurance and confirmation about the path I was on. That was refreshing to me. I really should relisten/read the words so that I can get refreshed again. As I have been a bit under lately. I have felt pushed off track with the pressures I am feeling in my marriage. I still feel like I have a bit of weight on me that I want off of me. I have been taking this to God...giving it to him. And when he shows me a sore spot...a point which causes me dis-stress, then I am reminded to apologize for doing that same thing myself and give it to him, again. This helps. Though, I really do wish this would speed along faster, if possible. Even a lasting miraculous healing would be great. But I know that there are certain things I need to know about myself, and to learn about myself...that I may not be able to unless I go through some things. At least that is how I am justifying what I am going through...in my mind.
There is so much I can touch on...as it's been far too long since I last wrote. I have had many interesting dreams...one recently where I lived in Paris. Not in a scary way...but it was beautiful in my dream...a comforting place...not a bustling place. I left that in the dream to seek someone out...to let them know where I was...to see them again. They didn't really seem too interested. Ambiguous...maybe that's the word. Not ignoring me. But not intently listening, either. Hmm.
In the word I received, God told me that I was going to have windows and entrances for me to go through. That I would discover all these boxes full of treasure. Some were myself! I would learn how to weed through the enemy's deception to keep me distracted so that I don't focus on what God's showing me...myself...my treasure within me. And there will be new ways in a career, and creativity, people, etc. The things that were distracting me, and the people,etc. that were keeping me off my target are going to be taken away. My head will be above the water now. It talked about how I do everything unto Him and that there is immense power because of that. The more and more I come into the truth of who I am and I act on that, the more boom I have in the spiritual world. I remember that when I see someone I can pray for. It resonates with me still.
I believe he said 5 doors slammed shut. From the 4 cardinal directions. I am going to dig into that deeper.
Well, I am hopeful. I am looking forward to more treasure. What treasure is inside of you?
Love you!
N.
Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts
Friday, November 27, 2015
Monday, March 23, 2015
An Annointing
I have been attending Pastor Coomer's meetings for a little while now. I really enjoy the fellowship, Word, and the open and honest nature of the place. It's filled with Love. You can really feel God there. There aren't a bunch of masks and faux-ness going on....it's real...it's dirty..and it's heaven down to earth. It starts off with a meal...Pastor Coomer usually prepares it. People serve us...or we serve them (I serve sometimes, myself...even making dessert and bringing it for everyone). We all sit down together and enjoy the meal and fellowship. Then people get up and do some worship praise songs to get our hearts ready for God's word. Then we receive the Word from God. The package that God uses varies every time. There are a few repeaters...people who come on a semi regular basis...but often times it is someone new. We receive the word through testimonies, through bible lessons, through sermons...it varies but never enough to not be what you needed. (Though God, thank you for helping the one man, you know who I am talking about Lord, who yells way too loudly, really hurts our ears (it's not a huge room) and gets way too bent out of shape...a little bit on the negative tip.) It's just what I have needed.
Saturday night I came expecting good things. I was looking forward to getting some wisdom from God, for sure. I had chosen to spend the day with my daughter shopping and fellowshipping, instead of driving to Birmingham to listen to a minister speak at the extension school. So I was hoping for some good stuff. I had eaten before arriving, so I arrived a little bit later than normal. (we had a most awesome experience with a delightfully beautiful man who works the pizza liaison station at EarthFare, Corey...such a wonderful time, I hope to be able to bless him in my future. He prepared the most perfect pizza I had ever seen. Very tasty, too...mmm hmm. I will be eating some more of it tonight at Left Over night ala my house.)
I sat down next to a few of my brothers in Christ. I love Pastor Little...he always has a warm hand and a kind smile. I sat with him. While the praise was going on Brian kept texting me. Which is kind of rude. But I found his irritation with my son Nathaniel hilarious as Nathaniel hollared, "God help me! God help me!," over again as Brian refused to get him a cool shiny keychain and took him out to the car! Rofl...he kept calling on God to help him in his time of need! Awesome my little man, just awesome! The texts happened periodically throughout the service...unfortuneatley for him...not having anything better to do really.
After the music stopped the pastor mentioned there was going to be the word given and then Phil was going to talk. I didn't know who that was but was looking forward to it. I don't recall if he mentioned that he was a prophet, or not. But Mr. Phil Morgan is a prophet. Yes indeed.
It turns out that Phil had been there at an earlier point on the calendar and had said that things would happen in 3 days, 3 weeks, and 3 months. And sure enough someone there had gotten a job opportunity at that exact time, the ministry had gotten a large donation at one of those times, and a lady had gotten a house. There were more testimonies I am sure...but not everyone from the last meeting was there...the crowd varies each time to an extent.
Mr. Morgan talked about the verse God had given him for us, Habakkuk 2:3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak and not lie; though it tarry, wait for it because it will surely come; wait for it. That was really powerful in and of itself. But he expounded on how God would be raising up churches in the area that are focused on the truth and not denominational dogmas and doctrines of men. He would be bringing down, lessening the churches that are still focused on the doctrines of men. In the end times He needs the church to be united. Because as we know a house divided cannot stand.
Phil prayed for a few people before me. I prayed for them, as well...and asked God to make sure that I got to be prayed for, as well. When I got up to the front, not everyone got prayed over, he asked me to put my hands up. He asked me if I had a purpose, I told him I am in Bible College. He agreed and asked if I'd been baptized in the Holy Spirit, I said yes, and he told me to pray in tongues, I did. He said that God has a call on my life...that I am called to be a prophet....words of wisdom and words of knowledge and that with my hands I would heal people (praise God!)...I could feel the Holy Spirit...I got warmer. At one point I stopped speaking in tongues and just wept. Not out of sadness...just appreciation for my lifelong dream coming true...what I had waited for my whole life, was coming to pass....such an amazing experience. He told me to step into what God called me to do....in my mind, I saw myself stepping..physically stepping into it. I wanted to step for real...in faith...but I don't know if I did...lol. Phil said that I was getting red, while this was happening...I could feel the heat in my hands...so amazing. He anointed me.
When my prayer was over I went back to my seat, drying my eyes and just so happy. I totally received and do everyday, what God blessed me with. I watched everyone else who wanted prayer get prayed for...only a few other people...maybe people are afraid of what God will say to them. I had thought I would get a word of knowledge about my romantic life...but was so surprised and honored by what God gave me instead! After the annointing I did not have a care about my marriage. What happens in my romantic life doesn't matter....I have a purpose...clear finite direction! Praise God!!!
I got in my car and called my bestie of 20+ years, who now loves the Lord, too, and serves Him willingly, and spilled the beans to her. She was not in a place where she could talk...but I know she received it well. Then when I got home I called my mom and texted my friend Patrick and Sharon and told them. I know that they would never judge me or be jealous of the path God gave me. Sharon even told me that she knew this same thing years ago when she read my posts on here about dreams. That was awesome to hear!
You see I remember sitting on my bed, in my room, in that house on Semmes St. as a child. Many things I would write about in my diary. Many things would I learn in that house. I was probably in 4th grade then when I did this. I used to be an avid reader of books. I loved everything supernatural and had read books on esp, psychic abilities, and things like that. I always wanted to be psychic...to have the ability to see things. I had many dreams back then...I had visions and I used to have dejavu all the time. I remember asking God if I could be a prophet. I even think I told him I didn't want to see all the horrible gory stuff...nothing that I could not handle. I remember thinking, would anyone believe me if I told them of something that was coming. Now I know that God would handle that...our job is just to tell people what God wants them to hear. And new testament prophets spend a lot of time encouraging the church for God so they can continue to do what God has called them to do.
I am still super excited! God is so good! Thank you Lord for giving me my dreams. You are the bestest Lord!
Saturday night I came expecting good things. I was looking forward to getting some wisdom from God, for sure. I had chosen to spend the day with my daughter shopping and fellowshipping, instead of driving to Birmingham to listen to a minister speak at the extension school. So I was hoping for some good stuff. I had eaten before arriving, so I arrived a little bit later than normal. (we had a most awesome experience with a delightfully beautiful man who works the pizza liaison station at EarthFare, Corey...such a wonderful time, I hope to be able to bless him in my future. He prepared the most perfect pizza I had ever seen. Very tasty, too...mmm hmm. I will be eating some more of it tonight at Left Over night ala my house.)
I sat down next to a few of my brothers in Christ. I love Pastor Little...he always has a warm hand and a kind smile. I sat with him. While the praise was going on Brian kept texting me. Which is kind of rude. But I found his irritation with my son Nathaniel hilarious as Nathaniel hollared, "God help me! God help me!," over again as Brian refused to get him a cool shiny keychain and took him out to the car! Rofl...he kept calling on God to help him in his time of need! Awesome my little man, just awesome! The texts happened periodically throughout the service...unfortuneatley for him...not having anything better to do really.
After the music stopped the pastor mentioned there was going to be the word given and then Phil was going to talk. I didn't know who that was but was looking forward to it. I don't recall if he mentioned that he was a prophet, or not. But Mr. Phil Morgan is a prophet. Yes indeed.
It turns out that Phil had been there at an earlier point on the calendar and had said that things would happen in 3 days, 3 weeks, and 3 months. And sure enough someone there had gotten a job opportunity at that exact time, the ministry had gotten a large donation at one of those times, and a lady had gotten a house. There were more testimonies I am sure...but not everyone from the last meeting was there...the crowd varies each time to an extent.
Mr. Morgan talked about the verse God had given him for us, Habakkuk 2:3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak and not lie; though it tarry, wait for it because it will surely come; wait for it. That was really powerful in and of itself. But he expounded on how God would be raising up churches in the area that are focused on the truth and not denominational dogmas and doctrines of men. He would be bringing down, lessening the churches that are still focused on the doctrines of men. In the end times He needs the church to be united. Because as we know a house divided cannot stand.
Phil prayed for a few people before me. I prayed for them, as well...and asked God to make sure that I got to be prayed for, as well. When I got up to the front, not everyone got prayed over, he asked me to put my hands up. He asked me if I had a purpose, I told him I am in Bible College. He agreed and asked if I'd been baptized in the Holy Spirit, I said yes, and he told me to pray in tongues, I did. He said that God has a call on my life...that I am called to be a prophet....words of wisdom and words of knowledge and that with my hands I would heal people (praise God!)...I could feel the Holy Spirit...I got warmer. At one point I stopped speaking in tongues and just wept. Not out of sadness...just appreciation for my lifelong dream coming true...what I had waited for my whole life, was coming to pass....such an amazing experience. He told me to step into what God called me to do....in my mind, I saw myself stepping..physically stepping into it. I wanted to step for real...in faith...but I don't know if I did...lol. Phil said that I was getting red, while this was happening...I could feel the heat in my hands...so amazing. He anointed me.
When my prayer was over I went back to my seat, drying my eyes and just so happy. I totally received and do everyday, what God blessed me with. I watched everyone else who wanted prayer get prayed for...only a few other people...maybe people are afraid of what God will say to them. I had thought I would get a word of knowledge about my romantic life...but was so surprised and honored by what God gave me instead! After the annointing I did not have a care about my marriage. What happens in my romantic life doesn't matter....I have a purpose...clear finite direction! Praise God!!!
I got in my car and called my bestie of 20+ years, who now loves the Lord, too, and serves Him willingly, and spilled the beans to her. She was not in a place where she could talk...but I know she received it well. Then when I got home I called my mom and texted my friend Patrick and Sharon and told them. I know that they would never judge me or be jealous of the path God gave me. Sharon even told me that she knew this same thing years ago when she read my posts on here about dreams. That was awesome to hear!
You see I remember sitting on my bed, in my room, in that house on Semmes St. as a child. Many things I would write about in my diary. Many things would I learn in that house. I was probably in 4th grade then when I did this. I used to be an avid reader of books. I loved everything supernatural and had read books on esp, psychic abilities, and things like that. I always wanted to be psychic...to have the ability to see things. I had many dreams back then...I had visions and I used to have dejavu all the time. I remember asking God if I could be a prophet. I even think I told him I didn't want to see all the horrible gory stuff...nothing that I could not handle. I remember thinking, would anyone believe me if I told them of something that was coming. Now I know that God would handle that...our job is just to tell people what God wants them to hear. And new testament prophets spend a lot of time encouraging the church for God so they can continue to do what God has called them to do.
I am still super excited! God is so good! Thank you Lord for giving me my dreams. You are the bestest Lord!
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Where to go...
I have been reading/meditating on John 15:11 and the surrounding verses. So we are supposed to love one another (John 15:12) and in doing that, putting aside our lives (John 15:13), we can be full of joy (John 15:11). So having joy is just that simple. But the verse says that we 'might' have his joy remain in us and we 'might' remain full of joy. So, what is it that we need to do in order to have that joy? I think we have to choose to have it. I believe it is just that simple. We could ask for it, like in John 15:16. Or we can just believe we have it because Jesus told us it is a possibility. And if we waver, which we are not to do (James 1:6), we can always ask God to help us with our unbelief like the father did in Mark 9:24.
Also, to me joy is directly tied to resting in God's peace. If we are resting in God...believing that He is taking care of everything and just enjoying the ride. Then that lends our temperaments to be more susceptible to joy...our hearts are not hardened.
I realized recently, thanks to God, that I had a lot of unforgiveness/bitterness in my heart that I needed to let go of. I sat in bed and wrote 6 or so pages of confessing my forgiving of things that I found bothered me. I do not want these things to rent space in my heart , thus hardening it, any more! Hebrews 12:15 talks about how bitterness can defile many...all from one person. If we are honest with ourselves, we can look at those we live with, or deal with regularly, and see how our bitterness, or unforgiveness has affected them. I can see this in my own life. We have to be honest and real about these consequences of our choices and resolve to fix them by letting God work on those people, forgiving others, letting God heal our broken hearts (Luke 4:18), and repenting so we don't keep doing it over and over again...in that cycle the devil loves for us to be in.
I just realized this week, actually, that I have had a part of my heart hardened. Like I compartmentalized some feelings and they started to leak. I started feeling feelings I had not felt in ages! I actually started to listen to music again. I am still unsure if that is the best thing for me, as music is a very powerful tool and can be used to sway your thoughts and emotions, often times to things that we really should not be thinking about, if we are trully honest with ourselves. But I have been laughing again. I have been smiling more. I have been looking forward to things. I am just starting to pick at understanding what is going on with me. God is sharing it with me, bit by bit, in a way that I can handle. for He knows me best.
God has been helping me realize some things in my marriage that I need to work on. Learning respectful behaviour for one. I am realizing that it is actually something I know how to do. I have known how to do it. I just have not done it. I have some hurts from long ago that need to be healed.
I have been longing to be appreciated and loved. I have asked God for love...to feel His love. To know how much He loves me. I have been shown things in the Word. But I have felt very cold in a lot of aspects of my life. I know there is more passion and fire for God and my fellow man out there. But why do I not have it? God brought me in contact again with a dear friend from my past. I started to feel appreciated and adored. That is something I have not felt in over a decade. (I have tears starting) I am embarrassed to say that. Almost like I have been living a lie. I don't know if to others, myself, to God, or my husband, or everyone involved. I am just soaking up the positive feedback like you would not believe. Over the years it seems I have gotten way more negative feedback than ever positive feedback. I have shut down on a certain level and am not open to certain feelings with the people that have done this to me. I love them. I do. But the love is not God's best. And the love is not the kind of love I enjoy most. It is not full of spontaneity and passion and laughter and affection and beauty. This love travels a flat line. It swerves to miss the potholes of anger and resentment. In these swervings it does occassionally hit some sweet spots in the road. But overall, it is not anything memorable. It does not put in my heart happy fulfilling memories. Things to tell your kids and grandkids about.
I miss the laughter and kindness and the gentle fun love that God has put in my spirit. I want that in my day to day life. I do not know if I can have that with the people who hurt me. To be honest, I do not know if I want to. I know God can make anything happen...if I want it He will work it out for me to find that peace and joy. But do I want it this way. What are my alternatives? Where to go from here?
Pray and wait on God and the Holy Spirit to lead me in peace.
Also, to me joy is directly tied to resting in God's peace. If we are resting in God...believing that He is taking care of everything and just enjoying the ride. Then that lends our temperaments to be more susceptible to joy...our hearts are not hardened.
I realized recently, thanks to God, that I had a lot of unforgiveness/bitterness in my heart that I needed to let go of. I sat in bed and wrote 6 or so pages of confessing my forgiving of things that I found bothered me. I do not want these things to rent space in my heart , thus hardening it, any more! Hebrews 12:15 talks about how bitterness can defile many...all from one person. If we are honest with ourselves, we can look at those we live with, or deal with regularly, and see how our bitterness, or unforgiveness has affected them. I can see this in my own life. We have to be honest and real about these consequences of our choices and resolve to fix them by letting God work on those people, forgiving others, letting God heal our broken hearts (Luke 4:18), and repenting so we don't keep doing it over and over again...in that cycle the devil loves for us to be in.
I just realized this week, actually, that I have had a part of my heart hardened. Like I compartmentalized some feelings and they started to leak. I started feeling feelings I had not felt in ages! I actually started to listen to music again. I am still unsure if that is the best thing for me, as music is a very powerful tool and can be used to sway your thoughts and emotions, often times to things that we really should not be thinking about, if we are trully honest with ourselves. But I have been laughing again. I have been smiling more. I have been looking forward to things. I am just starting to pick at understanding what is going on with me. God is sharing it with me, bit by bit, in a way that I can handle. for He knows me best.
God has been helping me realize some things in my marriage that I need to work on. Learning respectful behaviour for one. I am realizing that it is actually something I know how to do. I have known how to do it. I just have not done it. I have some hurts from long ago that need to be healed.
I have been longing to be appreciated and loved. I have asked God for love...to feel His love. To know how much He loves me. I have been shown things in the Word. But I have felt very cold in a lot of aspects of my life. I know there is more passion and fire for God and my fellow man out there. But why do I not have it? God brought me in contact again with a dear friend from my past. I started to feel appreciated and adored. That is something I have not felt in over a decade. (I have tears starting) I am embarrassed to say that. Almost like I have been living a lie. I don't know if to others, myself, to God, or my husband, or everyone involved. I am just soaking up the positive feedback like you would not believe. Over the years it seems I have gotten way more negative feedback than ever positive feedback. I have shut down on a certain level and am not open to certain feelings with the people that have done this to me. I love them. I do. But the love is not God's best. And the love is not the kind of love I enjoy most. It is not full of spontaneity and passion and laughter and affection and beauty. This love travels a flat line. It swerves to miss the potholes of anger and resentment. In these swervings it does occassionally hit some sweet spots in the road. But overall, it is not anything memorable. It does not put in my heart happy fulfilling memories. Things to tell your kids and grandkids about.
I miss the laughter and kindness and the gentle fun love that God has put in my spirit. I want that in my day to day life. I do not know if I can have that with the people who hurt me. To be honest, I do not know if I want to. I know God can make anything happen...if I want it He will work it out for me to find that peace and joy. But do I want it this way. What are my alternatives? Where to go from here?
Pray and wait on God and the Holy Spirit to lead me in peace.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Awesome bible study
We had a really good bible study tonight. It touched on God's love for us and how we need to accept what he has graciously done with us...what God did for us made him happy! It focused mainly in Ephesians chapter 1. I enjoyed it. I want a full revelation of how it made God happy to save us...to save me. I want a full revelation of what God's hope is for me! We talked about the prayer that Paul uses farther down in Ephesians. "That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him:
18 The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,
19 And what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power" That was really something....it really puts what I have been asking God for into much more eloquent words....lol.
Our teacher wants to put another ad out on tv for a hope of more attendees to the bible study. I asked if we could go out and heal some people as a way to get them to come to the bible study. He is going to pray on that and chew it over. My daughter, who was with us tonight, is excited about that idea, too. She has healed people at school herself. I told her on the way home tonight that someone will be healed next week at bible study. So we are getting excited expecting great things!
Our teacher's wife, who was not able to come due to an intestinal bug, has the ability to sense people's emotions much more strongly than most people. I think all women have this ability to an extent. It seems hers is more acute. I asked if she felt anything off of me. He said that if she had of he did not remember...it did not stand out. I asked about my husband and he said she sensed anger. Not the kind that would come out and be all over. More like an undercurrent I gathered. Interesting. but not eye opening. He did tell me that guys will often times say nothing is wrong because they have not figured out what is bothering them. If the man can not logically figure it out then he will look over it or push it to the side until it makes sense. Then once it is in a box so to speak, he will talk about it. That made a lot more sense to me then the 'man cave' analogy I have heard about. I really appreciate his giving me some help with that insight. Praise God for helpful people!
We are really excited about next week! Yay God! Oh, we were a little late this week but we brought some yellow cake I had made from scratch. It is really good. The rest I am thinking about icing and taking to the homeless luncheon tomorrow. It just depends. God is dealing with my frustrations with the church people eating my food. I make it for the homeless and i have been having a hard time dealing with the church people eating what I bring for the homeless.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I love this teaching
I am really excited to share this teacher with you. He, to me, is just as good as Mr. Wommack and really knows how to bring things to a simple speech so that you really get what the Word of God is saying. His name is Mr. Curry Blake. He leads John G. Lake Ministries. He, like Dr. Blake, was able to heal. He heals just as all Christians are able to, in Jesus' name. He knows a lot of the Word and I am happy to have another person to add to my list.
This is the most recent teaching that comes from the New Man teaching.
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I am really enjoying this teaching! I am sure you all can get something from this as well. All you have to be is born again to heal in God's name and to preach the gospel. You do not have to be anointed, or train for years. All you have to do is have simple belief in the Word and what it says about you.
This is the most recent teaching that comes from the New Man teaching.
Video streaming by Ustream
I am really enjoying this teaching! I am sure you all can get something from this as well. All you have to be is born again to heal in God's name and to preach the gospel. You do not have to be anointed, or train for years. All you have to do is have simple belief in the Word and what it says about you.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Dream about eye sight
I had a dream a little while ago that my eyes were going to be healed. In the dream, I put my glasses on and had to take them off again to be able to see. I am excited about believing that! God kept telling me to post this one on here, so I finally did.
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