Thursday, December 13, 2012

Frustrated

    I am frustrated with myself getting hurt by the things that my husband says and how he handles situations.  I should know after over ten years that when he senses the slightest bit of disagreement he will run to the hills.  He won't stay and say that what I said seemed disrespectful.  He will bale on me.  Just like he learned from his psycho mom.  I am just frustrated.  I am tired that no matter how i change, what I do differently, if I say anything that he doesn't like, he bails out and just leaves.  It is so rude and disrespectful and demeaning.  To never have what you say matter or count.  To always feel rejected and like you have nothing to contribute.  That my opinion doesn't matter.  It is hard.  Today is one of those hard days.  And yes, sometimes I do hate my husband.  I realized today that I resent him for holding me back from what God wants me to do.  I know God wants me to finish bible school and help children.  I want more children and my husband does not.  I want to travel and tell people about God and my husband is an unbeliever.  I want to do such great things for God and my husband could care less about any of that and what it means to me.  Or at least it seems that way.  Especially, when I am working on doing something for a charity and he doesn't support my efforts.  I wish he would pray with me.  I wish he would not expect me to be perfect.  I wish he would realize how great God's love is for him so that maybe he could give a smidgen back to me.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Train Dream

      I got on board a train with a couple of people.  One was an old friend named Luke.  I remember not knowing where the train was going.  I was told by a young lady that it was going in a loop and that I'd be back home soon.  I relaxed.  The train lay out was different.  I remember this one car was blue...a robin's egg almost, blue.  It was wide.  It had two beds in the middle, turned down, very fluffy, with partitions between the bed and the walkway/doors to the next car.  They were on both sides of the beds.  They had a couple of sets of beds like this.  They were raised a little off of the floor.  They looked so comfy and inviting.  I wanted to lay in one.  There were seats off to the side of the beds that were in the middle.
       Then I saw a lady from the train.  She was checking on people's arrangements.  Then there was another young lady.  She had just gotten on the train.  She told me she was going to Mexico! I was floored.  Then I asked where we were headed now.  A young lady told me, "Washington".  I thought, where is Washington Alabama?  Then I started to worry a little.  I wanted to get off of the train.  I liked the idea of going to Mexico and sleeping in that car.  But I felt I had to get back home.  The train lady told me, at some point, that you have to have prepurchased a ticket for the sleeping arrangements I longed for.  Then I remembered seeing someone's ticket/paperwork laid neatly on the made bed folds of  sheets.
      Someone told me, I believe that lady from the train, that I could get off and someone would come pick me up and I would go home.  My friend Luke had conveyed that he would get off of the train with me.  Then I was suddenly off of the train.  I was standing in a partially covered curved parking area.  It curved behind me and to my right.  I looked at the train in front of me, but it was now a bus.  I saw my friend Luke stick his head out of the back door on the driver's side, and then he and his duffle bag jumped off of the bus/train (it was red with a vertical stripe).  Then I felt relieved.  Knowing I had someone with me, considering I had no idea where I was.  Then the bus was gone...
   
     I had been studying Matthew chapter 24:15 where Jesus tells us to stand in the Holy place.  I was wondering what is the holy place and where is it?  Is it figurative or literal?  I had also looked in Daniel at the abominations and was wondering what those are to be or were exactly.  I wonder if that has to do with my dream.  Or if my dear friend has accepted Jesus as his saviour finally!

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Rats!

      Last night I dreamt that I was somewhere and this man decided to eat this huge, really long rat, alive.  I did not see him eat it, but saw him about to, and him giving his word.  Then, some time had passed and I saw him sitting at a booth and he was in pain, it seemed to be because of the thing he had eaten...like it was tearing at his insides.  The man had long hair, brunette, in a pony tail. He was of a good build and stature, he had good shoulders, kind of broad.  He wore a black tank top or shirt.
     Then I wondered a little while late because I had eaten a small rat myself.  I wondered if I would be in pain...but I was not.  I rebuked the possible pain.  We were in subterrainian like tunnels....area.  I wonder what it means.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Dream about hurricane and flooding

      I had a dream a week or so ago about a hurricane hitting the gulf  area.  I did not blog about it because I thought it had to do with our plans to go on vacation, since in the dream it was the building I had considered staying at that was hit,  and so I took it as that and nothing more.  But, I should have blogged about it anyways.
      Last night I had a dream about flooding in the Atlanta area, that there was a bunch of rain coming and they were going to have some more flooding.  This was in the central part of Atlanta, the older areas that got flooded last time...the ones with all of the creeks and tributaries that no one notices until it floods.

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Fedex, Fortune 100 company, with terrible benefits package

      First I want to say that we are very thankful for our family having a steady income and are very thankful for Fedex providing that income.  My husband has been a loyal employee for over a decade and does everything he can to support his company.  But after receiving our benefits package in the mail, we had to say something about this for once.  It is just not fair and it is shameful.  I take so much pride in Fedex.  I will ship them when it costs me twice as much as say USPS, just to support my home team!  I buy their merchandise, I ship with them, and I promote them to businesses I shop with.  All because I know it's a good company.  But what has happened this year is unacceptable.  I would give more specifics but he is still in fear of speaking out and losing his job over this. Here it is.
    
      Ok, I am very disappointed for the second year in a row!  My husband works for part of Fedex.  Not express.  He has worked for this supposed Fortune 100 company for over 10 years.  His company used to have decent benefits.  Not excellent, but fairly good benefits. That is until last year.  Last year the benefits offered went and skyrocketed by price and the benefits went down in quality.  For the first time ever we had to elect to get middle of the road medical benefits and it was so crappy we just never went to the doctor.  Not once last year did we go to the doctor.  I did not want to pay the over 700 dollar a person deductible!  Plus, none of the well visits were covered 100 percent for our kids, so why bother with that either.  We used to have those co-pays reimbursed. Not anymore.
     We just got the enrollment forms for next years benefits and it is even worse than last year!  To get medical insurance that we can afford, that is one that is under 250 dollars a month that we would have to pay out of our check, we have to go with the middle of the road which now has deductibles of $1250.00 a person!!!!  That is a total of 5000 for a family of say 4!  It only pays for 70% of in network costs and you have to pay for your office visits.  You don't get to pay a co pay and that is it!  Ridiculous!  The drug coverage is absurd and only covers 50 percent!  Thank God we don't have regular prescription needs.
    The 'high end' premium choice they offer is not great either.  It only covers 80 percent!  Fedex is a Fortune 100 company and they give their employees worse benefits than Aldi does!  That is right.  I was talking with a cashier at Aldi the other day and she pays $20.00 every two weeks and gets 90% coverage and has Cigna.  We pay 30 dollars every two weeks and get 70 percent coverage and a 1250.00 deductible!   So, we could get better benefits if we worked for a discount grocery store chain than big time Fedex!?!
     Fedex is doing this to their money makers.  Fedex Express costs the company money.  But they treat those employees like gold.  They get company picnics and parties and company paid bbq's and all kinds of perks and benefits for doing a job well done.   It is the other branches like Home Delivery and Ground and Freight that bring in the money, and the money making branches are the ones whose employees are worked to death and treated like crap.  Freight, Ground, and Home Delivery do not get company perks and parties and incentives anymore.  We used to get perks for coming in and working on a Saturday to help out, but not now.   My husband does not even get any sick days.  He has to take a vacation day if he gets sick.  SO, he just does not get sick.  My husband works 10 hour days on average. He is a manager, but still.   And that is not him taking a lunch break either.  He works none stop, balls to the wall, so to speak.  He doesn't even have time to talk to me for more than a couple of minutes at a time, if that.  That is not including when it is peak season, which is almost upon us.  It is even worse then.  You can forget getting any time off for our family to have time from Thanksgiving to New Years.  You are not allowed to take any days off during the Holiday season.  Which means, we never get to go home and see our family for the holidays without it being totally chaotic and stressful.  We have gotten used to that and have come to accept that is the nature of the business, even though we do not like it.
       It does not end there.  If you win an award and they give you something they tax you for it.  Like, if you win a trip to a company event, they say it is part of a bonus and tax you overtime pay rate for it.    I have heard about this happening from other employees themselves, not my husband.  It is just ridiculous what they are doing to their employees.   For a company that makes so much money, you would think they would do more to help and support their employees.  For example, the dental benefits are horrible, too.  There are no participating providers where we live.  None. Everyone here is out of network.   So, I just pray over my teeth.  It works.  But it is kind of sad that I don't have a reasonable option with this Fortune 100 company.  The vision benefits are ok.  We have to go with an out of network provider and pay up front and get reimbursed.  The people in net work are not quality providers.   Why is Fedex doing this to their backbone?  Why would they treat their people this way?!
      I am really thankful that I know God's Word and that I pray over my family and their health because with Fedex's benefits package we can't afford to go to the doctor.  It is ridiculous and sad.  I hope that whomever in corporate that got the kick back for choosing the lousy benefits, for the thousands of employees that now have to suffer thanks to them, sleeps well at night.  I am praying for you, you know who you are.  May God forgive you for you know not what you do.
 

Thursday, October 18, 2012

More dreams

     First the one from a week or two ago.  The dream had owls in it.  It was night time and I had someone walking with me, on my right side, down a street that curved towards us and then to the left.  I noticed a great barred owl walking on the side of the road.  Then I saw it stop and mourn it's partner or friend who had died and was laying on it's side, facing away from us on the side of  the road.  The owl stayed there for a moment mourning and then moved on towards the left following the road on what I guess would be a sidewalk in the dream.  We were in the road itself, I believe.  We followed the owl briefly.  Then I saw a snowy owl on a line on the left side of a  road. The line traversed the road horizontally.  The road went off ahead into the distance.  I remember thinking I was amazed to see a snowy owl in our town.  There was a pigeon opposite the owl on the other side of the road on the line, as well.


     Now last night I had a dream about some weird things and I just brain farted.  I will remember thanks to the Holy Spirit and will post later.

Any interpretations?

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Dream I forgot to post

       I can not believe I forgot to post this one.  This one was a couple of weeks ago, I believe.  I was at a hotel looking for a room.  The number was 587.  I found the room and I was inside the room, I found it by going through the doors to the rooms, the numbers were on the inside of this room's door.  There were a few doors in this room, three to be exact.  This one door, with the number on it, was in the middle.  The door had the number '587' on it and then below and to the left it had a number 2 on it.
      So, I got up and looked in my bible for a page 587.  I found it and it was a list of Christian Character Builders, 60 to be exact.  Number 2 says this=  Available = Willing to adjust my schedule to fit the desires of God and others.  Then it lists Mark 1;17-18 as an example.  'And Jesus said unto them, Come ye after me, and I will make you to become fishers of men.  And straightway they forsook their nets, and followed Him.'
      I was reminded of this last night and I reread what the Holy Spirit had shown me.  I do need to be able to adjust my life for God's will....to do what He wants.  I do want that...I want to be a disciplemaker and to do His will.
     This reminds me of my dream where God told me to feed the children.  How does he want me to do that, I wonder?  I know He will make it all known when the time is right!

God is lovely!

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Luke 14:15-33 Awesome awesome awesome! !!!

      I had decided to read the bible to my son before bed, instead of letting us watch television.  A most excellent choice, God said.  He turned my bible to Luke 14.  When my son had kicked the bible closed and I reopened it, it fell to the same page, praise God.  Below are the revelations that I received from these verses and there are more to come I am sure.
      Verse 26 talks about how if you do not hate your family and life, then you can not be Jesus' disciple.  It goes on to talk about how you would need to sit down and weigh out whether or not you have enough to finish a project before starting to build or else you will be mocked by those who beheld the unfinished work.  Or would a king not think before a battle to consider the battle ahead of him.  Then He says that whosever does not forsake all that he hath he cannot be His disciple.  
      That got me to thinking about what we need to give up in order to focus solely on God!  Seek first the kingdom of God...  Matthew 6:33.  Then I thought about how we must give up the things that tether us to the worldly world and the things that cause us to offend Matthew 5:30  because God wants us to be full of knowledge concerning His world and simple as a retard concerning the world of the devil.  Romans 16:9  You need to ponder what it means to be a disciple before you take that step because it is not profitable to only go halfway with it.  You must go all the way or be spit out.  Revelation 3:16   You can not just say, "I love Jesus".  You have to pick up your cross and change yourself.  You have to put God's Word, and your relationship with God above all other relationships and things or you will fail to finish building and you will be mocked.  Unbelievers mock hypocritical Christians who talk a good talk but never back it up with actions.  You have to leave all that this world is behind.  You have to leave your fleshly desires, your relationships that take you from God (friends or family that do not support you),  you have to leave it all behind.
      Then it totally made sense with the passage before it in verses 16-24.  He is talking about how a man invited a bunch of people to a dinner and they had said they'd come but backed out the night there of.  The man was pissed, as who would not be.  So, he had his servant go out and collect the needy from all over so the place would be filled.  The people that backed out used everyday life as excused to not come to dine.  Think about it like us and how we use everyday life to refuse to dine with our Lord at His supper table!  The man says then that none of the first group who were invited were allowed to taste of his supper!  Man that is deep!  So, we want to make sure that we do not let the cares of this world get in the way of our supping with our Lord.  If we do, we fall away and will not taste of his supper.  You can also compare this with the pharisees and the sinners or the jews and the gentiles.  But I really feel God wants us to know that it is an all or nothing thing.  We must give our whole life...not just  a bit or a piece to Him.  We have to surrender it all to Him!
      We are being called to let God handle it all in our lives!  There are so many verses that talk about this.  Like if you are like me and do research on food.   I would spend an hour looking up a farm to get beef from. Let it go!  Let God handle it.  Matthew 6:25  Worrying about whether or not your spouse is upset or angry?!  Let it go and Let God defend you!  Exodus 14:14 (The Lord shall fight for you and you shall hold your peace.)  Where will  I live if I commit to doing God's will and moving away?  Let it go and Let God go out before you and make His way for you!  Isaiah 52;12 and Matthew 19:29 says that God will make up for you forsaking people and places by giving you even more than you imagined.  So, don't allow this world to take up any space in your mind/heart.  Because as a man thinketh in his heart so is he!  Proverbs 23:7.  If you are afraid of something or someone or some event?  Let go and let God be the one who gives you a sound mind!  2 Timothy 1:7  The Lord does not give you a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind!  Praise God let me hear you praise God!  There is just no reason to be concerned with anything at all in this world!  Luke 12:24-26 puts it so well with this  Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls?
25 And which of you with taking thought can add to his stature one cubit?
26 If ye then be not able to do that thing which is least, why take ye thought for the rest?  DUH!  What are we doing people?!  We have to let it go...this world does not matter enough to take us from God and our everlasting life.  Our everlasting life is our relationship with God.  The kingdom of God is within us.  Luke 17:21 So we have to do this!  We have to give it all to God and leave the rest behind!  Never looking back or else we'll be like Lot's wife and be destroyed by it.  Praise God I am so excited to do this...to just let it all go and let God handle everything from now on!  How easy my life will be!  Matthew 11:30, that is what Jesus is talking about when He says that His burden is light and it is easy to carry His yoke!  Praise God!  How easy that is indeed!  To just live for God and let God handle all the details!  Oh I praise you Lord!   I give you my life...my concerns...my details....my got to have it done my ways....my do it this way or it won't work out so well...who cares, it will always work out more excellent now because I am giving you free reign to go crazy with your love and grace and kindness in my life!  Praise you God and thank you Jesus for your sacrifice!  Oh Holy Spirit you rock it so much, too!  You teach me so much I am forever in your debt, as well!  just let it go....God I give you all of my control issues and I give my whole life to you...every last atom of it...you have it all thank you for taking it and molding me and changing my life and those around me for the better....oh how you work it all for good for those who believe on you!  AND I BELIEVE ON YOU GOD!  Praise you!  Oh thank you LORD!  
     ALL of nothing and I am giving it all to you!  Thank you for taking it and for teaching me these fabulous truths!  I will always have these truths in the front of my mind and in the front of my heart and on the tip of my tongue, thank you Holy Spirit oh my God thank you!  I am renewed, my heart is clean and my spirit is fresh and I am on my way Lord!
     This goes right along with what God just showed me about resting in Him and how you have to cease your own works in order to rest in Him!  Hebrews 4:10 talks about that!  That is so awesome how God shares with you and me!  I am so thankful for this!  This is really blessing me!  I just stop doing anything and let Him do it all.  Resting in Him.  Oh God thank you for letting me rest...for letting me dwell in your peace!   Thank you so much!  I have been so burdened by my own stupidity and lack of knowledge...thank you for teaching me!  Thank you!  I can not thank you enough!

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Who I am and maybe you are in Christ

     My facilitator for one of my Charis Bible College classes, online, sent me a copy of this!  It is so wonderful!  I am excited to get my ink replaced so I can print it and keep it with me in my purse.  It is very helpful and wonderful.  I hope you enjoy this and will pass it on to others!


Who/What I Am in Christ


I am reigning in life by Jesus Christ (Romans 5:17) 
I am not looking at the things that are seen, but at the things which are not seen (II Corinthians 4:18) 
I am walking by faith and not by sight (II Corinthians 5:7) 
I am casting down imaginations and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God (II Corinthians 10:5) 
I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus (II Corinthians 5:21) 
I am rooted and grounded in love, because Christ dwells within me (Ephesians 3:17) 
I am the workmanship of God, created in Christ Jesus for good works (Ephesians 2:10) 
I am a partaker of God's divine nature (II Peter 1:4) 
I am prosperous and in good health, because my soul prospers (III John 2) 
I am being transformed by the renewing of my mind to prove the perfect will of God (Romans 12:2) 
I am healed by the stripes of Jesus Christ (1 Peter 2:24) 
I am more than a conqueror through Jesus Christ (Romans 8:37) 
I am the salt of the earth, and the light of the world (Matthew 5:13a, 14a) 
I am complete in Christ (Colossians 2:10) 
I am strong in the Lord and in the power of His might (Ephesians 6:10) 
I am taking the shield of faith and quenching all of the fiery darts of the enemy (Ephesians 6:16) 
I am praying my desires and receiving them (Mark 11:24) 
I am like a tree planted by the rivers of water and everything that I do prospers (Psalm 1:3) 
I am a temple of the Holy Ghost (I Corinthians 6:19) 
I am given exceeding great and precious promises, and by them I partake of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust (II Peter 1:4) 
I am led by the spirit of God; therefore, I am a son of God (Romans 8:14) 
I am not walking after the flesh, but after the Spirit (Romans 8:1) 
I am receiving all of my needs met according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19) 
I am casting all of my cares upon Him, because I know He cares for me (I Peter 5:7) 
I am blessed with all spiritual blessings in Christ Jesus (Ephesians 1:3) 
I am blessed when I come in, and blessed when I go out (Deuteronomy 28:6) 
I am an heir of God and a joint-heir with Jesus Christ (Romans 8:17) 
I am increasing and abounding in love (I Thessalonians 3:12) 
I am being made perfect in every good work to do God's will (Hebrews 13:21) 
I am showing forth the praise of God (Psalms 51:15)

Monday, July 30, 2012

Dreams

     I had a dream the other night where I was entering a really large newer/new high school.  It was an open house.  I knew that a man was going to come in and start shooting people.  So I found a place to hide.  He was going to shoot in the auditorium.  It was a round one...like colosseum shaped more than a  rectangular basketball gym shape and seemed pretty large, to me in the dream anyways.
     I was hiding in a niche, up above a closet type thing.  He came in and stuck a needle in me and gave me a small amount of a drug.  Not enough to kill me, but enough to immobilize me.  I knew that I would not be found until after he shot all the people that he was planning on shooting... and that my husband and daughter were in the auditorium.  But I had a sense of peace about their safety.  I did not want to hear the terror and screams of the people.  Then the dream cut off abruptly.  
      That made me think, that if it was a prophecy, that I was being spared the pain of actually seeing the death and hearing it.  So, for that I am extremely grateful.  That was one of the main reasons I held back in being a psychic growing up.   I did not want to see the looks on people's faces and the horrible emotions...just how badly it would hurt me to experience that being as sensitive as I am.  I knew I could not handle that.

      Then I had a dream where we had come home and someone had gotten into our filing cabinet, the second drawer and then we needed to look and see if they had taken something upstairs.  So, I woke my husband up and asked him to sleep downstairs just to be sure...lol.  Of course everything was fine.  The second drawer is my bills paid drawer.  They had dented the drawer really badly...really jacked it up in the dream.  And I don't know why in the dream I would worry about someone going to get my jewelry when I don't have any...lol.

Friday, July 27, 2012

What do you do if you marry an unbelieving husband?

     I thought I was doing the right things, but man I was wrong and completely blown out of the water, in a sense, as to what I am supposed to do.  I knew I was supposed to let the Holy Spirit do the convicting...but the way that Kate explained it in this lesson was exactly what I needed to hear and learn!  I wish I had known this before, but am so thankful to have this information now!  Praise the Lord!
http://earnestlycontending.com/maranatha/?p=6&cpage=1#comment-6612

Thursday, July 19, 2012

A really good dream to look at...

      I had a really good dream to look at last night.  In the dream I was in a different house than this one.   We were in a bedroom type room.  The house was a single story home.  Erik B., a friend from school, was there and he was to my left next to me...just out of sight, but I knew he was there.  I was in the left farthest corner from the door to the room.  There was a bed/futon on the wall directly next to the door.  There was a huge roach on the bed/futon.  The tentacles of the roach were the amazing thing....they went half way up to the ceiling!  I remarked on the amazing tentacles in the dream.  I told my husband about the roach, in the dream.  (like in real life...if one of the large random invaders comes in, he will kill it if I can't get it first)  So, I told hubby about it  and he went to kill it.  I was embarrassed in the dream that my friend was seeing a roach in my home, but he did not care about it.  He kept doing what he was doing.  It seemed to be studying. (maybe God's Word)  So I asked my husband if he thought we should go ahead and call an exterminator out now.
      Then the focus shifted to the window behind me.  The window had water damage on the drywall above the window that we had not noticed previously.   I was worried about this in the dream.  I asked my husband if there was any way to have buyer's remorse or a lemon law about a home.  We had just gotten out of our current home (one in reality).  Then I noticed that this new house had a lot of foot traffic going by it that it was across the street from a school.  I noticed that the front door did not have any doorknobs on our side...just the rods sticking out....two one on top of another.
      But then people just started coming into our home.  It was a bunch of mixed and black kids and it reminded me of where I grew up.  I walked past the kids coming in, all the while wondering why they were coming to us and our home. I went out into the front yard.  There was an adult there a black man with a short beard.  He had a stern look upon his face.  He was pushing an empty stroller.  But there were a lot of kids all over our yard.   One came up to me and hugged me.  I then knew I was supposed to feed these children.  I looked back towards our home, with the little front stoop and the kids and knew I was supposed to feed them.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

New Dreams

     I had a dream the night before last that was different.  I was in a hotel with other people.  None of which stand out as anyone I know now.  It was night time.  I had two doors, one on each end of the room, on the same wall, in the hotel room.  It was fairly good sized.  It had a couch, lamps, bed, and more room.
      In the dream there was someone trying to kill people.  Or more specifically me.  Lol.  But I swear it was David Suchet who plays Poirot, who was the guy trying to get to me.  (Maybe a little too many times of watching Harry and the Hendersons with my kids!  LMBO)  It was not very gory or even really terrifying.   It did have adrenaline in it.  I did wake up a little scared.  But not over the top.
      In the dream I remember the hotel number being 707 (maybe 507)  and there was someone standing outside of the room with us and they were in front of me facing the room and telling someone, I believe Mr. Suchet, about where we were.  I yelled at them for telling him where we were...that they were going to get us killed being stupid like that, basically.
      There was a scene where Mr. Suchet was trying to get into the room and we were battling keeping the door shut from him.  You could see him through the crack.  That is how I know who it was trying to get in.  We did watch a masterpiece mystery, Inspector Lewis, on tv before I went to bed, but it had no similarities to my dream.
      The dream was pretty much just running away from this guy.  Not sure what that is in reference to.  It could be my running away from something that I am afraid will hurt me.  I am not standing in faith and in God's Word if I am running away from something out of fear.  And God said He would not give us a spirit of fear.  That is in 2 Timothy 1:7  For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.  So I will talk to God and see what I may need to face in terms of fears.  

      I had one last night about an ex boyfriend of mine.  I do not remember the dream.  It was one of those where you just wake up thinking about someone.  I woke up thinking I needed to minister and witness to him.  Then I thought of ways to do that.  But I do not think that is the best idea right now.  I will have to talk to God about it and see if that is what He really wants me to do.  This man has not been the best of influences on me in the past and you do not want a rotten apple to spoil you.  I will have to make sure I am firmly rooted in God before I start reaching out to people in my past.  Especially the ones who like to start drama and want to hold grudges and hurt you.  And I should do it only if I know God thinks it is best for my family for me to do that. I do not want to put my family through any unneeded pain and suffering.  Some people can be just plain crazy at times and do not want to let go of what the past holds.

2 New Classes at CBC

      I am about to start, in a couple of weeks, two new classes at Charis Bible College online.  I am really excited about them!  I have already taken Beatitudes by Bob Yandian, The Holy Spirit I by Wendell Par, A Sure Foundation 1&2 by Andrew Wommack, and Relationship with God 1&2 by Mr. Wommack, as well.  I am going to be taking Romans, which is by Lawson Perdue and Your Home Can Survive the 21st Century by Delron Shirley.  I have not had either teacher yet, but have heard great things about Mr. Perdue from my dear friend Sharon.  I had been led to read Romans a few times around the time I was picking out the first class.  I asked a friend, Rebecca, about the second class and she told me what the chapters of the class were and it is just what I had hoped for!   I am so excited.  I have listed below the chapters as listed in the correspondence class.  
 (I think there may be some spelling typos, but you get the general gist of what my friend was trying to type. )

1. Love American Style. Deterioration of the family and marriage in modern society. It started earlier. Examples of Noah and Eliezer.
Lesson 2 Eliezer Illustration of marriage made in heaven. Five ways to recognize God's direction. Lesson 3 Building a survivor family. Two personalities becoming one.
Lesson 4 Having a happy and Godly Sexual life
Lesson 6 Parenting - Not just for kids
Lesson 7 Money Matters, relationship to $
LEsson 8 Divorce
LEsson 9 Gifts of the Spirit
LEsson 10 Apollyon

Monday, July 9, 2012

Dream about Colorado

      I had a dream last night/this morning about a friend from my past.  His name was Luke.  I think I was looking for him in the dream.  I remember searching going on.  He has came into my daytime thoughts often lately.
      Then the dream shifted to the mountains.  We (hubby and I) were in this building at the bottom of the mountains, the side of one in particular.  We had a map.  We were being told we could get up there in the time we were given.  I remember we were told ten hours...that we had ten to get there.  We had the Fury in the dream and that was what we were to drive up the mountain.  I asked if it would work and I was told it would be just fine.  I had no fear in the dream.  There was no fear in the dream...no worry or concern really.  There did seem to be a question of if we could make it in time though.  That seemed to be the only thing.  We were reassured we could.
      I remember the curves on the map.  I remember the 'passes' we were going to go through and around.  The person/angel that was talking to us was to my right and in front of me.  He had looked like my old friend Luke at first but then was faceless for most of the dream.  But had longer brunette hair.
      I wonder if that means we have 10 months or ten units of some kind of time to get there?  Or does the mountain refer to the ten years in our marriage that has gone past.  Or is it talking about the ten in the future?  Hmm.  Things to prayerfully consider and await the Holy Spirit's teaching on.
      Thank you God for my dreams and visions.  Maybe this is a prophecy.

Friday, July 6, 2012

A couple of dreams

    I say a couple and now I am asking God to help me remember that other one.  Right now, until the other is brought to my remembrance, I will tell you about the eye dream.  You see, over a week ago, my daughter accidentally poked me in my eye.  It left a red blood mark.  It has grown bigger as the blood under the surface has been dissipating.  I had a dream a few nights ago about it.  I looked into  a mirror and my eye was completely healed.  So, I know that my eye will be healed.  I knew that already though.  But who does not like having a confirmation in a dream?!  I sure do not mind it at all.
    That reminds me of the dream I had last year where the Lord told me I would get the money for the computer we needed.  Our old 10 year old iMac was no longer able to be upgraded and we needed a new computer.  Sure enough.  God gave us a bonus through hubby's work when hubby thought we would not get one.  The CEO of his company even emailed and said no bonuses.  I rebuked that and said that God is bigger than the CEO and God promised me the money.  Sure enough...we got a bonus check that paid for us a mac mini.  God is so good!
      I have signed up for a class this term with Charis Bible College online.   I am going to take Romans.  I just found out that I can take classes online with JGLM.  I am excited to be able to do that.  I, at the moment, do not have the money, but they offer a scholarship program.  So God will make a way for me to do that.  And I can pay some.  Just not all of the tuition.  Sweet!  I am really fired up to get to doing what God wants us to do!  Go out and heal, preach, cast out...awesome!  I love learning more and more about God's will and Word and who He is!  Don't you?!
      Oh, also, my bible study teacher has canceled now 2 times in a row.  He keeps blaming the devil for attacking him.  But I do not buy it.  I feel sorry for him for letting the devil win, if it is true.  The study partner had told me that his wife gets sick all of the time before he even started the bible study.  So, I do not think that is from the devil.  I think it has more to do with her mind set and all that.  I could be wrong.  But I bet she watches a lot of crap tv and puts little of God's word into her at the end of the day.  Maybe not.  It is amazing how some people just won't take responsibility for their own decisions.  The devil is not making you not do the bible study.  Giving him too much power and authority in your life. Oh well.  It says in the bible that as a man thinketh so is he.  So, I think his wife and he give too much thoughts on their health.  Maybe we will have a meeting one time this month.
     It is weird that the man will not let us do commune at the meeting.  He also did not want to lay hands on anyone until he had more people coming to the meetings.  I was really excited to go to the restaurant near there and ask if anyone wanted healing but he balked.  I hope he did not cancel out of fear.  Because that is not from God.  Only God knows why he canceled.  I will just lay hands on people the next meeting, with or without the guy.

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Dream

      I had a dream a night or so ago.  I was sitting talking with someone I used to be friends with, Lisa.  In the dream I remembered that I had heard her husband had died suddenly.  I asked her if she minded telling me what had happened, why he had died so suddenly.  Lisa told me that it was because he had cancer and it just killed him all of a sudden.  He had not known.
      Now, this man is pretty in shape.  He is built and not overweight at all.  He is in his 30's.  So that would seem odd.  And the emphasis, in the dream, was on the internal organs like the liver being attacked.
      In real life Lisa is divorced to her husband.  He had cheated on her and got the adulterer pregnant and he divorced Lisa and married her, a bartender.  The last time I saw Lisa she was engaged to be married to an IT guy.  But in the dream, it was her original husband, whom she truly adored and did so much for.  She even went all out in the bedroom for him.  She had no inhibitions, that I remember, with him in that area.  They had had a really healthy marriage from what I could tell.  He just let himself go to the bar with his buddies (not all married) and get intoxicated and the devil fed him lies and he bought them...hook line and sinker.  Lisa and he had 3 girls together, too.
      I do not know right now what the significance of the dream is.  It made me wonder about my own husband and if he was in danger of cancer.  I believe he has a fear of that since his dad died of it when he was younger.  But God is not the author of fear.  2 Timothy 1:7 says For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.  We must always remember that when fear comes upon us.  We must focus on God's love for us and how much He has done for us!
      I pray that my husband accepts Jesus as his Saviour.  I really want my husband to know the love that God has for him!  I want my husband to be filled with the joy and peace that knowing God can give you.  It is so relaxing and uplifting to know God has a plan and a purpose for you.  
      I know I did not do what God planned for me in my life.  But now I do want to do what God wants me to do.  I know that He can make something awesome out of my life, even if I screwed up the first 30 years.  He loves me and His thoughts are higher than mine!  Isaiah 55:9 talks about this very thing For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.  
      God I welcome your guidance and your instruction into my life...each and every day Lord, even if I forget to ask for it, please give it to me.  I need it.  I am nothing without your love and leading.  You are so awesome and so worthy Lord!  Thank you for being so kind [(Isaiah 54:9-10 For this is as the waters of Noah unto me: for as I have sworn that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth; so have I sworn that I would not be wroth with thee, nor rebuke thee. For the mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed, saith theLord that hath mercy on thee.] and for being so stable and full of unending peace and love for me and for us all!   Thank you for choosing me to be your daughter Father! I am so thankful to have you as my Father Lord...my Abba Da!  Thank you!  



Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Rainbow Oreos: Celebrating God's Promise or celebrating people's sins?

    I love homosexuals, heterosexuals, and bisexuals.  I love ALL people!  God made us all and just like God, I love all people.  You as Christians are supposed to dislike sin, but love the sinner.  We are all sinners and we all have things we need to change about ourselves in order to be more like Jesus.
     With that said,  I do not support gay marriage or gay pride.  I have lifetime homosexual friends in our family circle.  We love them.  But being a homosexual is not God's best.  Being homosexual is not why God made us.  He wants us to reproduce.  Genesis 1:28 and 9:1.  You can not do that being a homosexual.  There are other examples but I don't want to get into all of that right now.
     God said that he would never bring a flood again to destroy the earth and that is why He gave us the rainbow.  Genesis chapter 9 covers all of that.  Isaiah 54:9 talks a little about the flood and how God will never be mad at us. The rainbow is a symbol of God's mercy for us.  It is not a symbol that should be associated with being proud of going against God and His best wishes for you!
    With that said, if the new rainbow oreos are about homosexuals basking in their sin, then I am totally against that and the company that is marketing them.  If the rainbow oreos are about celebrating God's love for us humans by never flooding the earth again...then right on!  I will buy stock in a company that will do that.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Awesome bible study

      We had a really good bible study tonight.  It touched on God's love for us and how we need to accept what he has graciously done with us...what God did for us made him happy!  It focused mainly in Ephesians chapter 1.  I enjoyed it.  I want a full revelation of how it made God happy to save us...to save me.  I want a full revelation of what God's hope is for me!  We talked about the prayer that Paul uses farther down in Ephesians.  "That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him:
18 The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,
19 And what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power"  That was really something....it really puts what I have been asking God for into much more eloquent words....lol.
      Our teacher wants to put another ad out on tv for a hope of more attendees to the bible study.  I asked if we could go out and heal some people as a way to get them to come to the bible study.  He is going to pray on that and chew it over.  My daughter, who was with us tonight, is excited about that idea, too.  She has healed people at school herself.  I told her on the way home tonight that someone will be healed next week at bible study.  So we are getting excited expecting great things!  
      Our teacher's wife, who was not able to come due to an intestinal bug, has the ability to sense people's emotions much more strongly than most people.  I think all women have this ability to an extent.  It seems hers is more acute.  I asked if she felt anything off of me.  He said that if she had of he did not remember...it did not stand out.  I asked about my husband and he said she sensed anger.  Not the kind that would come out and be all over.  More like an undercurrent I gathered.  Interesting.  but not eye opening.  He did tell me that guys will often times say nothing is wrong because they have not figured out what is bothering them.  If the man can not logically figure it out then he will look over it or push it to the side until it makes sense.  Then once it is in a box so to speak, he will talk about it.  That made a lot more sense to me then the 'man cave' analogy I have heard about.  I really appreciate his giving me some help with that insight.  Praise God for helpful people!
      We are really excited about next week!  Yay God!  Oh, we were a little late this week but we brought some yellow cake I had made from scratch.  It is really good.  The rest I am thinking about icing and taking to the homeless luncheon tomorrow.  It just depends.  God is dealing with my frustrations with the church people eating my food.  I make it for the homeless and i have been having a hard time dealing with the church people eating what I bring for the homeless.  

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

I love this teaching

     I am really excited to share this teacher with you.  He, to me, is just as good as Mr. Wommack and really knows how to bring things to a simple speech so that you really get what the Word of God is saying.  His name is Mr. Curry Blake.  He leads John G. Lake Ministries.  He, like Dr. Blake, was able to heal.  He heals just as all Christians are able to, in Jesus' name.  He knows a lot of the Word and I am  happy to have another person to add to my list.
      This is the most recent teaching that comes from the New Man teaching.

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     I am really enjoying this teaching!  I am sure you all can get something from this as well.  All you have to be is born again to heal in God's name and to preach the gospel.  You do not have to be anointed, or train for years.  All you have to do is have simple belief in the Word and what it says about you.

Friday, June 8, 2012

Saggy Boobs Dream

      I had a dream last night about saggy boobs.  Mine to be exact.  In this dream I kept trying to get them back up, but nothing seemed to work.  I could not get them up, like a normal bra would get them.  I kept putting them back up, but they kept sliding back down.  They hung down a little more than in real life, too.  Not to my belly button or anything.  But it was lower than now.  In the dream I knew that breastfeeding played a part in the boob sagging.
     But I do not think the dream was about saggy boobs.  I think it had more to do with something not happening like one had hoped.  I kept lifting and they kept falling.  Some things in life can be like that...you lift it up, maybe you fix something, maybe you make progress, and it falls back down...digresses, breaks...or maybe it has to do with desires and expectations.    Expecting boobs to be up high when you have breastfed children is not realistic in the world's view.  So maybe the dream was about belief in God.  Because you may see something not working out in the 'world' but in the spirit realm you know the truth is different.  So you keep persevering and working to make the way you see it in the 'flesh' to match up with how it is supposed to be from a spiritual perspective.
      For example, in a spiritual perspective, I am not getting older, my body is not aging, and I am life...love...God...the Holy Spirit.  But in the 'worldly' perspective I have saggy boobs and stretch marks that I can look at.  It does not feel like I have eternal life. The boobs won't stay up.  But in fact I do.  I just have to look to God's Word and what He says about me.
      But back to the expectations possibility.  When you keep doing the same thing expecting different results,  it can sometimes be stupid.  But it is not stupid if you are fighting doubt and working towards believing God.  Sometimes you need to be repetitive to get your mind and body in gear with the Word.  But if it is just a general life thing...then it could have to do with my needing to break a bad habit of repetitive behavior that is not healthy for me, and has to do with unrealistic expectations.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Awesome Night

    I have been asking God for like minded people to be shown to us, that live nearby.  I have been wondering, does anyone around here follow Mr. Andrew Wommack's teachings?  Does anyone believe in the true Gospel?  My prayers were answered recently and tonight we met the family that God wants us to fellowship with!
     They are really wonderful people!  Their daughter is only 2 weeks younger than ours.  They also have a second child that is a few years apart, like ours.  They have a servants heart and are very kind and like us, have not found a church locally that believes like we all do.
    I am looking forward to seeing where God leads us with this new bible study with our brother and sisters in Christ.  I am looking forward to baking some bread for communion.  Would it be too much to make french bread for communion...with a little organic sulfite free wine?
    I am really excited...I know God has something big planned for us because the devil had been harassing us, like the fruit flies I had in my kitchen were, recently.  I told my husband that we had some really awesome things coming our way, or else we would not be getting crap from bo-bo.
     Oh, here is a great way to get rid of fruit flies (found this on an about.com page, thank you lady that posted this) is to put a cup of apple cider vinegar on the counter, or where they are, and add a little squirt or a few drops of dishwashing liquid (liquid soap).  It breaks the surface tension and they land on it and can't get out and drown.  I have 5 at the bottom of my cup.  Yay!  Little buggers.  I know God made you, but you don't need to be in our kitchen.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

God is so awesome!

     God answered my prayers, from around my last blog post.  My husband now understands me more and I understand him more and what he needs better than before.  I pray I will always look to be a better wife and better mom and a better Christian...always!
     I went ahead and registered in faith for the summer family bible conference in Colorado Springs, CO, July 4th week.  I do not know how we will pay for it, but I know God wants us to go and will make a way for it to happen!  God is just so awesome!
     We are about to start a study group that a local man is starting a couple of towns over.  It is all on Mr.
Wommack's  teachings and I am so grateful to have some like minded people near us!  Praise the Lord±! ± My control key is sticking when I± use the shift key...lol...sorry.
    Oh, with God blessing us with our new old car, I had an older woman and husband looking at it in the parking lot of a grocery store a couple of days ago.  I told them about how ±God blessed us with the car and she told me to, 'not loose that blessing'.  ±She was telling me to not forget, to remind myself how blessed I am with our Lord ±God±!  ±Amazing!  She is right!  May I never take for granted all that you have blessed me with oh Lord!
     Please God, tell me what your will is for my life.  I really want to make sure ±I am doing what you want me to do, and not my own will....only yours Lord!  Thank you Lord!  I love you!
    ±I am so excited to go to ±Colorado!±  I know it will be so much fun and a true family memory of a lifetime...it will be pivotal in our walk with ±God and our family's future.  Now to pick out a hotel.



Sunday, June 3, 2012

It has been difficult...

     I have not been the nicest person lately to my spouse. I have done really well, all around. But today I was nit picky and critical.  The only things are that I have been sleep deprived lately more than normal.  My son was sick a couple of weeks ago, he had a fever for 4.5 days.  Then this past week my daughter has been in her room with hand foot and mouth disease.  My son had a fever again yesterday.  But, praise God he was healed and is doing much better today.  He is just teething, it seems, and is needy.  But no fever.  But he did get me up at 3am.  I had had a good dream that I want to share, but at the moment am unable to write it down due to memory lapse.
     I tried to nap with my son last evening, but my husband woke me to ask if I needed anything.  I did not  get upset, I just went upstairs to bed.  Today, I was going to fall asleep on the couch with my son, but did not want a repeat of yesterday, so I told my husband I was going to go upstairs to sleep with our son.  My husband came up less than five minutes later, I just had our son to sleep, and woke him up, to ask where I put the cayenne pepper.  I was so frustrated and tired.  I kept telling him how frustrated I was, and how I just wanted to sleep, and that if he did not want to cook, he should have just told me, he did not have to wake him up.  I feel hubby is being passive aggressive.  Two days in a row he has woken me up when he knows I am not getting good sleep.  Hubby has not let me sleep in.  I have had to get up and cook every day, even though he is off in the mornings lately.  My daughter is out of school.  So I do not have to get up for her, but he won't help and let me catch up on my sleep.
     And then he seems so shocked that I am being snippy and impatient with him.  Well, I wonder why?  Men always get to sleep.  Women get short changed on our sleep so much.  And they blame pms for our moods. No, it is I have kids and you won't get your butt out of bed once or three times a week and let me sleep in, without pissing the kids off so they cry and wake me up 30 minutes later.  Arghie argh.
     Lord help me.  I am doing my best right now to not disrespect my husband.  But when he is not honoring and loving me, and I am tired and drained, it is harder than normal to be kind and sweet.  I want to.  He kept running his mouth and I did manage to walk over and when he was telling me to slap him, I just kissed him and said God loves you.
      Lord guide my husband to do what is best for our family Lord.  Because he is thinking of taking a promotion that will keep him away from home even longer.  He already is gone almost 11 hours.  He is only awake maybe 5 hours at best, at home with us.  He only gets one mean with his family a day.  He does not get time with me much anymore.  It can make you think you are second to his job, when they won't ever take a sick day to take care of you, and they are considering spending even more time at work. Money is not worth all of that.
     *I had had a vision a while back that my hubby would get promoted.  I told him that things were going to be changing at his job soon.  That was a short time ago.  Pretty amazing that it came to pass like that.  There is a big shift going on in the building where he works.
     Lord, help my husband see the priorities as you see them for his life.  I pray that he will open his heart to your will for his life and his job life.  I pray that he will be open to understanding how women are different in a good way from men and that you my Father made us to be that way!  I pray that he will follow your will and guidance and will do what is best for all of us, and not for his 'security blanket'.  That he will trust YOU for our money and not his own ability.
     Lord help me to focus on you when I get run down.  Help me to see the silver lining, the golden egg, the light in the darkness.  Help me to be more appreciative and less critical.  Help me to thank you most of all!  Help me to focus on your love for me and how much you love me and accept me!  Even when I do not feel valued or appreciated at home, thank you for showing me how much you appreciate me!  Keep showing me what to do with my life Lord. Show me how to be a better mother to my children and a better wife to my husband.  Thank you Lord.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Dream About Martha Stewart

     I had an interesting dream about Martha Stewart the other night.  Before I went to bed I had verses that dealt with prophecy and visions at night again.  So I was prepared for something to come to me.
     In the dream the woman did not look like Martha Stewart in person.  She seemed different, her face was different.  In the dream that was accounted to makeup and wardrobe and moods.  But this woman had hair a little bit longer than Martha's and it had a little wave to it.  Her face was a little more longer and free from makeup.  I asked her some questions...it was like I was interviewing her for something.  We were in a building, on a higher floor, with windows behind her.   It went well.  She was nice to me.
    Then I was traveling, trying to get to meet her again. There were all of these obstacles in the roadway.  Construction around the corner.  Things like that around this town.  So, I was hurrying to get there. It was dark when I got there.  It seemed like I was late.  I do not know if it was her I met when I got out of the vehicle, it was a woman.  And we spoke briefly.

     I have been asking God to reveal to me what He wants me to do in my life.  I do not want to be lukewarm, comfortable, and 'safe' with everything I do.  I want to do His will for my life. Be that bible college, moving, missions, staying home and helping others here, or moving somewhere and helping there. I want to know what and where and when God wants me to do things!  I am yearning to know that.
     In regards to that God usually uses people in a fashion that they are not naturally good at.  Like if you are good at singing, He will use you to do something else, so that God gets all of the credit, and not yourself.  So, I have been wondering if my baking has anything to do with God's will for my life, at all?  Also, I do the baking for the homeless lunch on Friday at a local church. Last Thursday I had this dream and then the following morning I rushed to get the dessert done in time, only to find that the lady that helps her husband run it had the flu and was not going to stay home, even though she had been to the E.R. the day before this!  I told her of the complications and how she could easily spread it to the homeless, but she did not care about that, she had to give her bible study. That bothered me.  I knew I would not get sick, but I did not know if the homeless men had the same belief in God that would protect them like mine has.  Then my son kept waking up from his nap needing me, so I was unable to bring the dessert to the lunch.  It turned out only 5 guys showed up, but still.  I wonder if the dream was about that, as well.
 

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Dream about my daughter

      I had a dream this morning about my daughter.  She had cut things out of some old books I had.  They were 1950's era magazines/soft bound type books.  She had cut out different women in their retro outfits.  I could see through the magazines there were so many cut out.  I was upset about what she had done, but I do not remember going ape about it in the dream. That was a thing to remember. There were two of these books, too.
      In day time my dad had told me he has some 1906 and '07 magazines for me.  2 to be exact that he is going to mail to me when he gets the money.  So, some could be a reference to that.  I think it could also be a reference to my daughter seeking what kind of woman she wants to be and trying out different models.
     Today was the first day, thank my God, that my daughter did not get really upset with me in the morning!  It was so awesome to have her go to school in a good mood with me, for a blessed change!  Thank you God for a wonderful start of a new day!  I made sure when I picked her up to let her know how much it meant to me that she had behaved SO well!
    The Holy Spirit is telling me the real things that are bothering my daughter, too, now.  For instance, when she went to go look at the lunch menu for school and decide if she wanted it or to make her lunch, she chose the school lunch.  God told me that she just didn't' want to make it herself. So, I asked her, and she admitted she just didn't want to make it herself.  I told her I would help her in the morning and that a little effort is worth her good health, that she is worth the effort.  Which she is.  Those school lunches are awful when it comes to the processed meat that the federal government calls food.  That is not real meat and I don't like her eating that junk.  Thank you Lord for making sure we have healthy meat to eat at home, at the very least!

God is so awesome!

Take the LIMITS OFF OF GOD!

I strongly recommend you to watch Mr. Wommack's teachings on Don't Limit God times 10!  It is powerful...I cried today, it is that good.  If you come across this post after this week, then look it up in his archive.  It is all free.  We love that about him!   http://www.awmi.net/tv/this_week

You can also find the free audio download here http://www.awmi.net/extra/audio/1076

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

The Fury!







This is my early mother's day gift.  It really is a blessing from God, I give him all of the credit for giving us the blessed car!   We were really in need of a new vehicle. My husband's car to drive to work in had been on it's last leg and my car was just too small for our growing family! 
 This is a 1966 Plymouth Fury III.  It had only 93k miles original when we bought it. It has a completely original interior in immaculate condition!  It has spent it's entire life in this city that we live in!  
The original owner bought the car for his wife.  When she passed he put it in the garage until he died 20 years later.  His neighbor bought the car and owned it for 2 years...a wonderful Christian man who loves helping the homeless and even has a clothes closet in his home! Him and his wife do their laundry, feed them, and have some that even call and come by when they are on the rails in town! Great people who love to serve others!  I was so glad to meet them.  
They sold it to us at a wonderful price that was such a blessing because we did not want to go against God's Word and get way into debt again.  We were able to secure a very small loan and yet have a safe beautiful dream car to drive around in every day!  Yes this is my daily driver!  
God is so awesome!  We had been praying and waiting to find the right car for a year or more!  God is so right on time, too!  
I am so thankful to have such a wonderful husband who gave me this blessed car and took the one I used to drive as his own!  What husband's let their wives have the best car anymore?  Mine does!


Saturday, May 12, 2012

School again

      I had another dream where I was in school.  High school, again.  It is never my old high schools....thank God.  I was going to my last class of the day.  The teacher was asking for us to turn in seeds to plant.  I, it turned out, to my partial surprise, had quite a few in my modest purse.  I passed them to the guy to my right and thus to the teacher further on.  I was standing at a table sat high on the far wall that went the entire length of the room...it may have wrapped around and been black like the ones in science rooms.
      When we were getting ready to leave he passed the seeds back out, threw them at each one of us, and told us if we were going to be, "alpha" or "omega".  This happened rather quickly.  He, now standing closer to the door leading to the hall across from me, tossed me a pack of mammoth sunflower seeds and said, "omega".  He said, "Do you know why I chose you to be ,"omega"?"  And I answered, "yes because I am already an alpha."
      We then left the classroom and heading out into the halls.  I came upon a sign up in the hallway for the pep squad.  There were a lot of signatures.  I, had a couple of ladies behind me signing up, as well.  I was the last name at the bottom of the list, the line before me had something wrong with it....like the person had been removed from the list or they had wrote below the lines and been noted.  There were markings on the line like it had been done wrong but there was not an actual name on the line.  So I signed on the last line on the page.  I asked the lady there what was required and what it was about.  It seemed doable and I was excited to be given a chance to see if I could join.
 

Vote in 2012 for Freedom of Religion

There are some interesting facts that show that President Obama does not support freedom of religion any longer.

Article about it here.   Or you can do it manually http://www.wallbuilders.com/LIBissuesArticles.asp?id=106938

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Vision

     I had a strange vision just this week.  I saw someone having sex in a car at my husband's work. I thought it was just one of those weird random thoughts you get sometimes...some times it is from the devil.  But it was not.  My husband comes home yesterday from work and told me that he saw a visiting employee from Florida having sex with a hooker in the parking lot of the building.
     Seeing that really messed with my husband and he had to rebuke that!  How immoral people are, it is really sad.  I kind of wished he had not shared it with me as I then had to rebuke that image out of my mind, as well.

Raw milk is good for you despite what CDC says


CDC CHERRY PICKS DATA TO MAKE CASE AGAINST RAW MILK
Agency ignores data that shows dangers of pasteurized milk
 
WASHINGTON, DC, February 21, 2012. In a press release issued today, authors affiliated with the Centers for Disease Control claim that the rate of outbreaks caused by unpasteurized milk and products made from it was 150 times greater than outbreaks linked to pasteurized milk.” The authors based this conclusion on an analysis of reports submitted to the CDC from 1993 to 2006.
 
According the Weston A. Price Foundation, the CDC has manipulated and cherry picked this data to make raw milk look dangerous and to dismiss the same dangers associated with pasteurized milk.
 
“What consumers need to realize, first of all,” said Sally Fallon Morell, president of the Weston A. Price Foundation, “is that the incidence of foodborne illnesses from dairy products, whether pasteurized or not, is extremely low.  For the 14-year period that the authors examined, there was an average of 315 illnesses a year from all dairy products for which the pasteurization status was known.  Of those, there was an average of 112 illnesses each year attributed to all raw dairy products and 203 associated with pasteurized dairy products.
 
“In comparison, there are almost 24,000 foodborne illnesses reported each year on average.  Whether pasteurized or not, dairy products are simply not a high risk product.”
 
Because the incidence of illness from dairy products is so low, the authors’ choice of the time period for the study affected the results significantly, yet their decision to stop the analysis with the year 2006 was not explained.  The CDC’s data shows that there were significant outbreaks of foodborne illness linked to pasteurized dairy products the very next year, in 2007: 135 people became ill from pasteurized cheese contad with e. coli, and three people died from pasteurized milk contaminated with listeria (wwwn.cdc.gov/foodborneoutbreaks/Default.aspx).
 
Outbreaks from pasteurized dairy were also a significant problem in the 1980s.  In 1985, there were over 16,000 confirmed cases of Salmonella infection that were traced back to pasteurized milk from a single dairy.  Surveys estimated that the actual number of people who became ill in that outbreak were over 168,000, “making this the largest outbreak of salmonellosis ever identified in the United States” at that time, according to an article in the Journal of the American Medical Association.
 
According to Fallon Morell “In the context of the very low numbers of illnesses attributed to dairy in general, the authors’ decision to cut the time frame short, as compared to the available CDC data, is troubling and adds to questions about the bias in this publication.”

According to Fallon Morell, the CDC’s authors continue to obscure their study by failing to document the actual information they are using. They rely on reports, many of which are preliminary. Of the references related to dairy outbreaks, five are from outbreaks in other countries, several did not involve any illness, seven are about cheese-related incidents, and of the forty-six outbreaks they count, only five describe any investigations.
 
Perhaps most troubling is the authors’ decision to focus on outbreaks rather than illnesses.  An “outbreak” of foodborne illness can consist of two people with minor stomachaches to thousands of people with bloody diarrhea.  In addressing the risk posed for individuals who consume a food, the logical data to examine is the number of illnesses, not the number of outbreaks. 
 
“The authors acknowledge that the number of foodborne illnesses from raw dairy products (as opposed to outbreaks) were not significantly different in states where raw milk is legal to sell compared with states where it is illegal to sell,” notes Judith McGeary of the Farm and Ranch Freedom Alliance.  “In other words, had the authors looked at actual risk of illness, instead of the artificially defined “outbreaks,” there would have been no significant results to report.”
 
This does not end the list of flaws with the study, however.  The link between the outbreaks and the legal status of raw dairy mixed an entire category of diverse products. Illnesses from suitcase style raw cheese or queso fresco were lumped together with illnesses attributed to fluid raw milk, a much less risky product.  In the majority of states where the sale of raw fluid milk is allowed, the sale of queso fresco is still illegal.  The authors had all of the data on which products were legal and which products allegedly caused the illnesses, yet chose not to use that data.
 
Similarly, to create the claimed numbers for how much riskier raw dairy products are, the authors relied on old data on raw milk consumption rates, rather than using the CDC’s own food survey from 2006-2007.  The newer data showed that about 3 percent of the population consumes raw milk—over nine million people--yet the authors chose instead to make conclusions based on the assumption that only 1 percent of the dairy products in the country are consumed raw.
 
The authors also ignored relevant data on the populations of each state.  For example, the three most populous states in the country (California, Texas, and New York) all allow for legal sales of raw milk; the larger number of people in these states would logically lead to larger numbers of illnesses than in low-population states such as Montana and Wyoming and has nothing to do with the fact that raw milk is illegal in those states.
 
“It would hardly be surprising to see some sort of increase in foodborne illnesses related to a food where that food is legal,” said McGeary.  “If we banned ground beef, we’d see fewer illnesses related to ground beef products.   Yet this new study fails to prove even that common-sense proposition, even as it claims to prove a great deal more.  What the data really shows is that raw dairy products cause very few illnesses each year, even though the CDC data indicates that over 9 million people consume it.” 
 
Contact:  Kimberly Hartke, Publicist, The Weston A. Price Foundation
press@westonaprice.org
703-860-2711, 703-675-5557
 
The Weston A. Price Foundation is a 501C3 nutrition education foundation with the mission of disseminating accurate, science-based information on diet and health. Named after nutrition pioneer Weston A. Price, DDS, author of Nutrition and Physical Degeneration, the Washington, DC-based Foundation publishes a quarterly journal for its 13,000 members, supports 500 local chapters worldwide and hosts a yearly conference. The Foundation headquarters phone number is (202) 363-4394, www.westonaprice.org,info@westonaprice.org.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

What every married couple needs to know to have a healthy marriage

This is a wonderful video and really shows what the basics in a marriage boil down to.  This has really shown my husband and I what the Bible says about marriage and what we had been trying to tell each other all along but did not get it out right!
This came at the best time for us in our marriage!  God really blessed us by showing us this.  I had been almost begging God to show me what to do differently and how to honor and respect my husband because I had no idea how to do that.  This is all about the key to your spouse's heart using God's way.


Michael

      Last night I had a dream.  In the dream I saw what appeared to be a man.  His name was Michael.  He looked like a famous person in the dream.  I tried to figure out his last name, but I did not want to insult him and say Jackson, because Michael Jackson was not a good person and I knew that was not his last name.  (the man looked like Michael Jordan it turned out, I figured it out when I was awake)  But he wanted to talk to me.  He was sitting down at a table.  I sat across from him.  He told me that I had, this is not verbatim but paraphrasing, mediocre crap before and mediocre crap now and that I need to believe God for much much more!  I agreed in my mind and when I went to talk to him about it, instead of talking about what to believe for I started crying tears of appreciation for what God had done in my life, or maybe it was what God had done and I am about to receive ? that I was crying tears of appreciation for and I was actually speaking faith over them in my dream.....right on!
      I also am thinking that the figure looking similar to Michael Jordan could have been an angel Michael.  Hmm.
      I was listening to the book of Luke on cd last night, also.

Dream a week ago or so

      I had a dream a week or so ago and I wrote it down like I felt led to.  Here it is.

      There was this trailer for sale with ten acres of land.  A very old mobile home.  There was a man selling it.  He was standing originally to our left kind of grizzly with tank top on.  Brian went in and was looking at the trailer, he was in the back of it when I came in to look at it.  I went in to look.  There was then two men outside of the trailer, to the left of the door, as I looked back out of it, sitting in cheap aluminum lawn chairs.  I go in and there is this weird spider over head on the ceiling.  I think it is ready to pounce on me.  I back away from it.  I had passed it before I noticed it, so I am backing into the trailer looking towards the door I came in from.   It is black and large.  I yell for Brian that we need to go as I watch this spider transform into something docile like like a butterfly, but not a butterfly.   An insect I had never seen before.  I run out.  The men are going to think we don't want the place because the wife left the home so quickly, but I did not care.  We had to get out of there.  That was the distinct feeling.  Brian comes out after me.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Shooting Star!;)

      My husband and I saw the weather man mention a cool triangle in the night sky,  jupiter to the left of the moon and venus above it.  We decided to go outside and check it out before bedtime.  I am so glad we did!  As soon as we got out and looked up we both saw a wonderful shooting star go across the sky!  To me it was a sign from God that everything is headed in the right direction and that we will be awesome!  To keep aiming high!
      I am so glad to get that encouragement because we had had a rough time communicating this week.  We kept getting tempted to be defensive and we made a lot of wrong assumptions, we argued, were very sensitive, and we were both very easily offended the entire week!  The funny thing is that we were both afraid of the same exact things with each other.  I have learned quite a lot from this.
      For one, I really need to remember to focus on what I, or someone else, might have done to hurt my husband, when he seems upset for some reason.  I do not need to start worrying about how I will be affected. Instead I need to find out why he was affected and help if I can or just love him through it if I can not.  I do not need to be so self centered.  I pray that the Holy Spirit will remind me of this EVERY time, before I have a chance to mess up and be self centered.  I pray I will continue to pause and give God time to tell me what to do in all situations.  I know God is doing something wonderful in our marriage or the devil would not be trying to mess it up so badly lately.  Thank you God for giving us a sign when we did not have to have one....or maybe we really did and we just did not know it...God is so awesome!

Thursday, March 22, 2012

I need to post right after I have a dream

      I keep putting off the posting of my dreams and then I tend to forget them.  It would be best if I wrote them down right away, when I wake up, at least, so I can post them on here later.  I feel bad about not doing that because I feel God wants me to post them.  Man, I really am tired of being so sin conscience.  I do not want to focus so much on what I do wrong.  Because then I focus so much on what others do wrong, too.  I want to focus on the right things in my life.
     My daughter did dream that she started her period.  That is something that I have dreamed about off and on throughout my menstrating life.  I would dream a couple/one or/a few days before I would start.  Then I would be ready with pads, waiting for it.  Lol.
      I had another dream with the two guys from 'Supernatural' in the dream.  It was a mildly weird one that I, at the moment, do not remember the details of.
       God led me to a verse, Jeremiah 3:15, that told me he would bring me a pastor.  That lifted me up.  I want a church home so badly.  I know it will not answer all of my problems, but it will help some.  It will give me socialization, edification, and help me to find more ministries for me to help with and hopefully give my daughter some good christian friends while she is learning about God.  I long for a 'family' here to help support my family and I.